Never Leave a Woman Alone with Her Thoughts

Alas, the time has come to reveal what has been happening in my life. It is 5:19am and I was able to get 8hrs sleep. This past week has been wonderful and dreadful all at the same time. Wonderful because I feel more secure in my relationship with earlier said boy but not enough so that I know this is going somewhere. On Monday, I got the coughs at work, that night ate supper but it didn't stay down:( Tuesday, went to work but could only stay for an hour, I felt horrible, so I went home, got into my pyjamas, made some chicken soup, laid on the couch and watched a movie. I had the worst sinus pain ever, my head was literally going to explode. The coughing is giving me great ab muscles...at least I hope so, it hurts like it. The fever...ahh the fever, keeps me warm. I wasn't at work for two days and on Thursday I felt better but Friday...I was slowly dying. After work, I came home, made some food...I was finally starving, hadn't eaten much all week. Laid on the couch, watched a movie and was in bed by 8:30pm...blessed sleep. So I woke up at about 3:30am-ish and started thinking about things. Mostly regarding the boy and the conclusion I came up with is...for all men's sake, never leave a woman alone with her thoughts. It will bite them in the keester, basically.
I really like hanging out with him because he appreciates me for me. He listens to me and we have great conversations about everything, a lot about the gospel. It feels great to have that kind of relationship with a guy. When I think about it, he is the male version of my friendship with Jenn S. Except I would only go camping with him if we are married and maybe not to Sol Duc Hot Springs...we wouldn't fit in(long funny story). Yet the thing is, he is still dating other girls!!! Yet he spends a lot of time with me, on the phone, email or face to face. I am falling for him and its driving me crazy because that will end up biting me in the keester if I'm not careful. Or maybe not. But is this the year to be careful? Is this a time to take risks like I said before in my last blog?
This is a challenge and it is forcing me to think about things and look at them as they are, which is wonderful. Now I am just trying to figure out if he is my blessing that will become a trial or my trial which will become a blessing? In relationships, don't trials and blessings become intermingled?

Happy New Year!!

So I started the New Year off with a bang! I already lined up my first date in the New Year on Dec 29th. I needed to make sure my 2007 started off properly. haha! I was asked out on a date @ the YSA dance in Burnaby by a guy who was divorced and I was okay with that. He's pretty cute and we went out on a date two fridays ago and went on a couple more, this would be great except he is also asking other girls out too. I didn't have a problem with that because I wasn't too interested, we have a great time when we are together and can be pretty level with each other. But now, I have a little bit of a crush and he brought me flowers to my work today. I was soo embarrassed but they are soo beautiful. He owns a flower shop by the way:) Anyway, the flowers are daisies, tulips and a Gerber, I think. All I know is that he remembered what I liked and brought me flowers. He is quite the charmer, he tells me i'm pretty (that's what got him the first date), beautiful, thinks my quirkiness aka snobbiness is "cute" and likes me. I just wish that it also meant that he wanted to date me exclusively...:( So far, we are pretty good friends and if it ever leads to anything more than this, then I'll keep you all posted...no pun intended. I was saying to Mehgan over New Years weekend that I miss having a really good guy friend and then look what happens, I get a self-confidence booster and good guy friend in one.

I have a registered to attend the MidSingles Conference in California this spring. I get to visit with my Aunt & Uncle when I am there and have signed up to surf on the saturday activity!! Yes!! This is the "Year of the Grown-Up" for me and so far, it's going great! I attended the Burnaby Ward two Sundays in a row now and this past Sunday I had Doug B. transfer my records. I ripped off the bandaid so to speak! So many changes, all good and it's only the beginning of the 3rd week of January. I am being more bold and getting out there and taking risks. Even with my heart and that's okay...a little scary but okay.

To the Year of the Grown-Up...May it stay as exciting as these first two weeks have been.