Alas, the time has come to reveal what has been happening in my life. It is 5:19am and I was able to get 8hrs sleep. This past week has been wonderful and dreadful all at the same time. Wonderful because I feel more secure in my relationship with earlier said boy but not enough so that I know this is going somewhere. On Monday, I got the coughs at work, that night ate supper but it didn't stay down:( Tuesday, went to work but could only stay for an hour, I felt horrible, so I went home, got into my pyjamas, made some chicken soup, laid on the couch and watched a movie. I had the worst sinus pain ever, my head was literally going to explode. The coughing is giving me great ab muscles...at least I hope so, it hurts like it. The fever...ahh the fever, keeps me warm. I wasn't at work for two days and on Thursday I felt better but Friday...I was slowly dying. After work, I came home, made some food...I was finally starving, hadn't eaten much all week. Laid on the couch, watched a movie and was in bed by 8:30pm...blessed sleep. So I woke up at about 3:30am-ish and started thinking about things. Mostly regarding the boy and the conclusion I came up with is...for all men's sake, never leave a woman alone with her thoughts. It will bite them in the keester, basically.
I really like hanging out with him because he appreciates me for me. He listens to me and we have great conversations about everything, a lot about the gospel. It feels great to have that kind of relationship with a guy. When I think about it, he is the male version of my friendship with Jenn S. Except I would only go camping with him if we are married and maybe not to Sol Duc Hot Springs...we wouldn't fit in(long funny story). Yet the thing is, he is still dating other girls!!! Yet he spends a lot of time with me, on the phone, email or face to face. I am falling for him and its driving me crazy because that will end up biting me in the keester if I'm not careful. Or maybe not. But is this the year to be careful? Is this a time to take risks like I said before in my last blog?
This is a challenge and it is forcing me to think about things and look at them as they are, which is wonderful. Now I am just trying to figure out if he is my blessing that will become a trial or my trial which will become a blessing? In relationships, don't trials and blessings become intermingled?
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